End of 39 Months Journey..

Hi!

It's been months since my last post. I've been very busy with a lot of things recently. And it is just difficult to start again writing after such a long break. However, today is one of my important day in my life, so i've to write about it.

Today marks the end of my 39 months of pursuing my Degree! I had my last exam today and that's it. It's the end of all the exams and school life. It is sad to move on to new stage of my life though... It feels like i'm forced to be an adult right now. In the other side, I'm happy as well, finally it is over. I've learned something, i've been through sadness and pain that makes me to what i am today.

39 Months ago, going in to that very first class of my entire journey.. I never knew that i would have to face so many unexpected things.. being friend with very quite people while i'm such a chatterbox... Stay sane with my studies although it is not my nature to just study non stop.. Moving on to higher diploma, i met a bunch of people that shaped my character and life... I met both amazing people and "not-so-amazing" people... People that i have to endure although i totally dislike being with them and people that i like being around with but sometimes i feel so awkward with them.

No matter what, everyone that i've met so far taught me something. Some teach me about hard work, some teach me about confidence, some other teach me about being strong, another teach me about pain and grow up and many more. I've been through ups and downs in this 39 Months journey... It was hard sometimes, but i did enjoy myself as well.

Now, my 39 Months journey ends here. Looking back from the very first day, i realised i've changed. I'm moving on to a better me. Pain made me grow up and joy has been my motivation.

I Thank God :)

Until  next time,
XOXO

21st Birthday Blast :)

So, today is my birthday..

I woke up with the normal feeling... I guess even being 21 doesnt directly change you huh... I directly went to Facebook and saw my news feed... It seems a lot of people is happy today.. Some friends got engaged, some started relationship and many celebrates their birthday today. Yes, birthday, same with me... Except i don't put that on my Facebook.  But i feel happy... Instead, Mega Happiness! Although there are only few wishes on Facebook, but to see a lot of people is having a good start today make me feel so happy. I turned on a song that i decided to listen first on my first day as a 21yrs old... It's a song by Bruno Mars, today my life begins.

Indeed, today my life begins, for people that know me...im a happy and joyful person... But i'm a normal human... And im fragile too... A lot of things will be always buried inside and i choose to smile instead... I dont regret this though.. I'm happy to see people i love being happy... And starting today, i leave those unhappiness that sometimes tried to rob my cheerful side... Im starting a new life today.. I will break the chain that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me..A whole new world is waiting, Its my part to take it... I know i can make it. Today my life begins..

 

Until next time,

XOXOXO

Thank You :)

Today is my 21st birthday...

Its a day of gratefulness... Instead of people wishing me a happy birthday, i really want to thank people instead... 21 years of happiness and love... I'm grateful...
I thank God for my life... I aint the perfect daughter, or friend or sister... But i'm glad people accept me as who i am...

Today,  I've received the best gifts ever...  I dont want any stuffed toys, or any gadget... It will be depreciated as time goes by...so,  I wish for something that value more as time goes by... And that will be the relationship i share with people around me... With my parents, brothers, sisters, friends and anyone that i know...

So, i'm contended, i'm a happy girl because of you... Everyone I've met teach me something and help me shaped my self to what i am... I am not the best, but trust me, i will try to live my life to the fullest and make those who loves me proud..

If you reading this, this includes you... It's my birthday today, thank you for being a part of my 21 yrs of happiness.
Thank you for making my life colorful... I Love You! :)

Pre-Birthday!

Hi!

It's 12 August today... just 2 days before i officially turn to a 21 yrs old lady~!
In Chinese, for a girl that turn 21 means she officially an adult... and people normally give a key as a symbol of freedom... i don't really wish for a key or anything.. Not even feel like celebrating my birthday... I know, it's weird right? until now i don't know how i gonna celebrate my birthday. Seems like my friends in campus will celebrate with me but i don't want to put my hopes too high... after all, it's been a tough year and i realized my birthday isn't that important... It's just a day when few years ago my mom went through a great pain to give birth to me...

What important is the people i love are there with me. If i can really get what i wish for my birthday i will wish for people that i love dearly to have good health  and happiness.. It will be better if i am the reason for all those happiness :)
That's the first wish, the second wish will be for my self... i want to find my own happiness... in work place, friendship and relationship...That's not too much, is it?

Being 21 soon give me pressure, i'm  not sure if everyone have the same thinking as me but being a grown up and looking at more and more people younger than you achieve something really feels like i'm lacking behind... when i was younger i used to see those teen singers or successful business youngster and feel like," Woah, they are so awesome, i definitely gonna be like them one day". And now here i am, 21 soon but i feel like i have nothing special about me..
I think i have to start thinking about dreams that i used to have when i was younger... Who knows one day those dreams can open an opportunity right?


Until next time,
xoxoxo

Friendship Blues

Hi There!

I hope whoever that reading this is doing good :)
I had a horrible night last night but i'm much better by now.. After spamming my Twitter with random thoughts of mine ( I don't have many active friends in Twitter ) and spent my night with low feeling but that's it.

I was upset over friendship... How many times that i felt like i cherish my friends but they don't take me the same... and it totally disappoint me...I feel stupid in the same time though... It's just friendship not like they are my family or boyfriend but they can affect me... I'm so easily affected just because i take them too close i guess... I thought i'm too kind to people around me.. and it hurts me instead..

But then i realise, or is it me instead? is it me that putting expectation and hope people give me something in return? or is it their standards just too high that i'm not able to meet to become their friend? I burst out last night.. and that's it. I'm gonna be what i am, i'm gonna treat people like how i used to treat them but i'm not gonna give any expectation to them. I'm happy if people around me is happy.. I've learn that life is so unpredictable.. you don't know when you or someone else will walk out from your life, so treat people the best you can...

I want to be someone that can give good impact to people around me, i want to motivate people so if one day, there's people who thinking about me and i can make them smile, then that's it. I probably won't know when that happen, but just thinking about it is nice. :)

So, i've done with this some uneasiness in my heart. I went to the lowest and now i'm ready to stand again. :)

I hope you enjoy reading my little thoughts in my blog, if you read it until here then thank you really much. I'd love to know so if possible please leave a comment :)

'Till next time,
XOXO

"My Wish"

This is my favorite lyrics currently and i found it few days ago... so I'd like to share it in this blog because it holds a big meaning for me...and i believe the same thing for everyone that love Rascall Flatts and this song... this is Rascall Flatts' song and check this song in YouTube if you have never heard this song before :)

My Wish
I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

(Reff)
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
(Reff)

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big


Hope you like it and to those that liked and still like this song, i hope this does bring memories!
*wink*

Good Night!
XOXO

A Close Stranger...

Hey There! :)

I have not posted anything for almost a month! I really need to update this more... I've always have lots to think and i thought it will be nice if i can write those on blog so i can always look back when i have time... But, apparently, my brain doesn't want to cooperate...I always good thoughts whenever i'm alone or in bus alone with some nice songs... but whenever i'm near my laptop, i will turn on the social media instead... I'll try to stick to my own rule to keep updating this blog at least for my sake because i'm not sure if there's anyone following my posts out there... but ho knows? hahahha


Well, i went back to my parents' home 2 weeks ago (again! hahahaha) and i went out with some of my girl friends for some crazy bubble tea time in the late night...and unexpectedly i met a long lost friend... It is always nice to meet a long lost friend, but it didnt feel alright for me because we both didnt have chance to say "Hi"... Or, maybe because it was awkward.. however we both were close before but suddenly lost contact so...yeah...
but it keeps bugging my mind for weeks... Just like the first time i know that friend...All the good memories with that friend suddenly come to you and bugging your night and even day time when you're alone... You even dont remember the problem that caused you suddenly lost contact with each other... and the worse of all, you know there are two choices, to be close again or to be just stranger... and the first choice is invalid because of some circumstances... Do you have same problem before?

Sometimes, i feel life is really a riddle... it seems hard and you dont understand it... to move on to next level will take a great pain most of the time...but you have to face it anyway... you can only keep going up or give up and eventually lost the game...

Deep down in my heart, i have that small wish ... that is to meet that friend again in my coming levels... And hopefully by then, i've already solved this riddle in my heart...

Good night,
XOXO

Computer Illiterate Lvl: Too High

Hi!
How are you? Whether i know you or not, i hope it's been a good week for you! :)

I've not been blogging for around a week! well, to be exact, 10 days actually... It was because i was busy recently... hmmm.. my friends wont believe me if i say i'm busy... hahahaha... some of my close friends know that i only busy with reading manga (japanese comic), watching drama and lazying around... i actually was watching a new drama and i finished the episodes in one go (stop watching only for eat and sleep)... Crazy but i just cant stop watching or reading something interesting and i'll keep reading until the end.... Is there anyone that has the same problem?
Another reason for not blogging is because my laptop....

I promised to talk about problems i'm having with my laptop in the previous post, and here i am... gonna reveal my stupidest mistake ever.... I made my friends laugh because of this and i feel really embarrassed.. i actually was considering not to write this but since i promised, i'll still write about it then... *embarrassed*
Few weeks back, i was searching for my old photos and i open my (D:) D drive (is it how you call it?), there's a lot of stuff there that i did not know and the dates are weird and they had weird size (like 1 Kb or nothing at all)... I'm a computer illiterate person, probably the worst ever that you ever know... so please don't laugh at me or if you want to laugh please don't let me know >.< ... yeah, back to the topic,  there were thousands over files when in the display there were just some folders... So... i thought... that they were viruses... I CTRL + A and delete everything...and that was the beginning of disaster... i did not know that so i was happy because i thought i finally deleted a lot of viruses from my laptop... until i turned on my laptop the next day and realized i lost almost everything...

But......., My laptop is fine now... thanks to an old friend of mine that managed to recover my laptop to its self again.. although i lost everything in the process, at least i manage to save my laptop :)
Stupid me... i learn not to just randomly delete stuffs when i dont know anything... I learned those in the hard way :'(
And now, i feel like digging a hole and hide myself inside it...


XOXOXO

8th Mei 2012 :)

Hello!

It's been awhile since my last post... I was away from my current country because i went back to have my study break with my family. Well, i just reached this morning and i go straight to my campus. A tiring day for me...

A lot of things happened today... I started to feel unwell when i was about to leave my country and i kept feeling nausea... I wonder if the breakfast made my tummy upset :( . Because of that i did not have proper lunch and dinner today... Well, living alone is like this,sometimes i wonder why i have to eat... Its so troublesome to think what should i eat 3 times everyday.... so, dear readers, (i wonder if there's someone reading this...hahaha) If you are staying with your family then be grateful, because when you are alone you gonna miss them for sure :) People need to have their own private time sometimes but it's no way you can survive the boredom of being lonely. :)

Today, another thing happened, i almost got hit by a crazy truck. But luckily my friend saved me... I was not looking at the road cause i met a friend and i turned my back to talk to him and just suddenly i was being pushed to the side road... I was walking on the road... but it was in University and lotso student also walk that way...who ever thought of a crazy driver driving so fast and almost hit me when i was talking :(
It was so dangerous just now but i'm thankful because i'm still well :)
However, if you drive, please be careful ok... It's better late than never... to everyone who walks, please always look around you and dont do the same mistake as i did. Life is so precious so let's cherish it ok? :)


Till Next Time <3 ,
XOXOXO

I Feel Bad...

Hello again!
So here i am again :) It's already night time now... i realize that the time in my blog post do not match the current time when the post was published... I dont know why... maybe because it takes the time setting from the other part of the world? (what am i talking? ) well, i don't know why, i'm not good with tech related matters, so if you happen to read this post and you understand why please tell me ok :)

It's 21:58 now... Normally during this time i'll feel very bad because i get very very hungry...but today, i feel very bad because i'm full.... Well, i feel bad because i ate too much... and just this morning my friends said that i lost weight but yet i ate my dinner so much... it feels bad :( i actually had more dinner than usual and i still drink a medium size of bubble milk tea... I was considering for quite some time to buy or not to buy... but i cant stop my craveziness for bubble tea so i lost... I must not drink anything sweet tomorrow... :'(
Well, if you understand what i'm saying please let me know... i believe we can get along extremely well... hahahha... *laugh* But seriously, leave a comment, i'd really want to be your friend *serious face*

I think that's all, enough for my randomness of the day... I'll try to talk less about boring stuff... hopefully if there's anyone reading my post they wont feel bored.

Back to feeling bad again, I should think how to lose the extra calories that i took for today's dinner,
Talk to you in the next post!
XOXOXO

Me & My Parents :)

So, its a beautiful Sunday afternoon and i'm here with my lappy that i screwed up few days ago (i'll let you know in the other post). I should be going out for a chill or at least window shopping during this beautiful weekend... although i did window shopping for awhile just now... i'm back home soon enough because of my flu... I seriously don't feel like making a huge scene fainting in the public... hahaha

I never tell my parents of my condition right now... i called them jut now and talked to them for a bit. It's always a happiness knowing your dad and mom are at home and well. It's something i'm feeling very grateful and I really thank God for my parents.

I love my parents very much although sometimes i feel irritated and angry towards them. I dont always tell them about my thoughts, specially to my dad, whom i rarely chat casually with... But I'm aware of how much they love me... although they love their children in a very unlovable action like nagging or sometimes scolding... hahaha...

It was hard as teenager to understand my parents... Their nagging always sounds like a broken radio for me... but now I'm staying abroad, i understand what they have taught me. It was harsh, but those harshness made remember their words... no one is perfect anyway, my dad and mom are not highly educated so they just taught me and my brothers in their way... But I'm glad that now my dad doesn't nag so much although my mom still does (and i understand well, it's for my own good! ), however, i still love them no matter what... I just can't imagine losing them in my life or without them in my world... They taught me a lot more than everything that i can remember... they are my motivation, my leader, my love and people i really look up to.

If i can make a wish, i wish for my parents to be always healthy and happy. I never tell them directly in words that i love them, I'll save it for the day i can make both my dad and mom really proud..
So, hopefully that day will come soon :)

Thanks for reading this really long post!
Warm Regards,
XOXOXO

15 July 2010 - 20 April 2012

Yesterday was one of memorable day for me. I attended the Investiture of school club that I've been participating since 15 July 2010... Although there were some disappointment that i felt, for overall, it was good. It's my last time participating so i don't wish to be so calculative towards that. I should enjoy the event and yes, i did enjoy the event :)

It's a mixed feeling after leaving a place that i normally so active in.. That place has taught me a lot of stuffs... How i communicate with people in different situation, how to handle problems, time management, and many more. But the one that gave me big impact is friendship... It is not easy to handle friendship in the "working"-like environment. Some people will give up friendship because of a little thing or a little misunderstand, some people view friendship as a tool for themselves, some others will view friendship as power for their position and there are those who suffer because of the others...

I probably belong to all of those... I don't wish to say I'm the best among all my friends because probably I've hurt people during that period of time. But I really cherish all of my friends that have worked together with me during that period. And it hurts me to see some of my club mate misunderstand me without me knowing why..
I take friendship seriously but there are people who just walk in to become close friends of mine and suddenly without anything they left me....

It has been something that i feel so regretful for several months... but since I've left the club, hopefully together with this post, i can let those past go and set my self free from feeling so bad of something I'm unclear about.

Let's smile and let those past go Rinee~ Those were good memories and experiences that should be always remembered but should not be burden to your heart...

So, together with this post, Good bye lovely memories 15 July 2010 - 20 April 2012 :)
Once in a while i'll be thinking of those memories without a burden in my heart and i'll definitely miss those moment :)

'till next time,
XOXOXO

The Start of My 4th Blog...

Like what the title said, its actually my 4th blog that I've ever created. Although it sounds like I'm a pro blogger, I'm totally not... I fail to keep posting in my blog and eventually, with my extremely poor memory and stupidity, i couldn't remember my password... I did write those memos to remind myself...but i lost my memos as well.... so, to save me all those problem of finding my memos i should make a new blog for my self :)

Another reason for making new blog is because there are a lot of stuffs happened to me this year... And those are good and bad memories that have changed me a lot.... I've learn some bitterness and sadness which taught me a lot and some happiness that i can find through some low points of my life. I'll share more in the next post ok ;)

Hopefully i can keep posting in this blog...that is what i wrote in the very first blog of the other previous 3 blogs but yet i still fail to keep that :( .I don't want to promise anything but i'll try to keep posting... and remember this blog and the password... hahaha....

Much Love,
XOXOXO