Friendship Blues

Hi There!

I hope whoever that reading this is doing good :)
I had a horrible night last night but i'm much better by now.. After spamming my Twitter with random thoughts of mine ( I don't have many active friends in Twitter ) and spent my night with low feeling but that's it.

I was upset over friendship... How many times that i felt like i cherish my friends but they don't take me the same... and it totally disappoint me...I feel stupid in the same time though... It's just friendship not like they are my family or boyfriend but they can affect me... I'm so easily affected just because i take them too close i guess... I thought i'm too kind to people around me.. and it hurts me instead..

But then i realise, or is it me instead? is it me that putting expectation and hope people give me something in return? or is it their standards just too high that i'm not able to meet to become their friend? I burst out last night.. and that's it. I'm gonna be what i am, i'm gonna treat people like how i used to treat them but i'm not gonna give any expectation to them. I'm happy if people around me is happy.. I've learn that life is so unpredictable.. you don't know when you or someone else will walk out from your life, so treat people the best you can...

I want to be someone that can give good impact to people around me, i want to motivate people so if one day, there's people who thinking about me and i can make them smile, then that's it. I probably won't know when that happen, but just thinking about it is nice. :)

So, i've done with this some uneasiness in my heart. I went to the lowest and now i'm ready to stand again. :)

I hope you enjoy reading my little thoughts in my blog, if you read it until here then thank you really much. I'd love to know so if possible please leave a comment :)

'Till next time,
XOXO

"My Wish"

This is my favorite lyrics currently and i found it few days ago... so I'd like to share it in this blog because it holds a big meaning for me...and i believe the same thing for everyone that love Rascall Flatts and this song... this is Rascall Flatts' song and check this song in YouTube if you have never heard this song before :)

My Wish
I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

(Reff)
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
(Reff)

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big


Hope you like it and to those that liked and still like this song, i hope this does bring memories!
*wink*

Good Night!
XOXO

A Close Stranger...

Hey There! :)

I have not posted anything for almost a month! I really need to update this more... I've always have lots to think and i thought it will be nice if i can write those on blog so i can always look back when i have time... But, apparently, my brain doesn't want to cooperate...I always good thoughts whenever i'm alone or in bus alone with some nice songs... but whenever i'm near my laptop, i will turn on the social media instead... I'll try to stick to my own rule to keep updating this blog at least for my sake because i'm not sure if there's anyone following my posts out there... but ho knows? hahahha


Well, i went back to my parents' home 2 weeks ago (again! hahahaha) and i went out with some of my girl friends for some crazy bubble tea time in the late night...and unexpectedly i met a long lost friend... It is always nice to meet a long lost friend, but it didnt feel alright for me because we both didnt have chance to say "Hi"... Or, maybe because it was awkward.. however we both were close before but suddenly lost contact so...yeah...
but it keeps bugging my mind for weeks... Just like the first time i know that friend...All the good memories with that friend suddenly come to you and bugging your night and even day time when you're alone... You even dont remember the problem that caused you suddenly lost contact with each other... and the worse of all, you know there are two choices, to be close again or to be just stranger... and the first choice is invalid because of some circumstances... Do you have same problem before?

Sometimes, i feel life is really a riddle... it seems hard and you dont understand it... to move on to next level will take a great pain most of the time...but you have to face it anyway... you can only keep going up or give up and eventually lost the game...

Deep down in my heart, i have that small wish ... that is to meet that friend again in my coming levels... And hopefully by then, i've already solved this riddle in my heart...

Good night,
XOXO